Is there an age or year of your life you would re-live?
When I first found these writing prompts, I promised myself I’d try to make each one – as far as possible – somehow BTS-related, because, well that’s what I’m and my blog is all about.
Now, if I had to choose one year of my life to relive, it would be 2019 without question.
From the very start, I decided it was going to be my “Yes Year.” I wanted to say yes to more adventures, yes to the things I’d been putting off, and yes to life in general. And honestly? It delivered.
Every year on my birthday, I wish for snow. And on the very first day of February 2019, just after midnight, I peeked out the window and — unbelievably — it was snowing. Actual, magical, real-life snow. I had to physically stop myself from waking the kids up there and then. Thankfully, school called a snow day, so we got to spend the whole day playing outside together.
It was also the day I learned never to take Louen’s creative suggestions too seriously because when he told me to use my glasses as decorations for our snowman, I said yes (it was the Year of Yes, after all). Let’s just say a heavy snowman head balancing on a wonky snowman body… didn’t end well. Luckily, I was collecting new glasses that afternoon anyway, so no harm done.
The year started with magic but it ended with change. I was made redundant that winter, and at first, it stung. But in hindsight, it was exactly the push I needed. It forced me to take stock, to chase something that was mine, and to rediscover what I was capable of. The new path I found since then has opened doors, helped me grow, and reminded me of my own worth.
But the real heart of 2019 — the reason it’ll forever be purple — was BTS at Wembley.
Two sold-out nights. I was there for both. And it was electric. The energy, the emotion, the love between the members and ARMY — it was like nothing I’d ever experienced. Their performances were beyond incredible; every note, every smile, every heartbeat felt alive. I’d already fallen deep down the BTS rabbit hole by then, but those concerts? They carved BTS a permanent place in my heart.
The camaraderie amongst army, the funny stories and anecdotes we still tell today, honestly it was amazing and more than just the memories. The little freebies I got from Wembley are still displayed in my Wembley frame 6 years later l, treasurer memories that mean as much as any expensive gift. And yes I know I moans about the freebies at Jin and some behaviours but that was one experience, I won’t let it affect my whole experience as all other times, that little experience of giving and receiving freebies amongst fans has been wonderful.
I also have a friendship that has gone beyond that initial first love for BTS. We are best friends, family and show up when needed. We chat shit, we talk families and children, get deep and take the piss as good friends do. Every day is fun and new and exciting and I’m thankful for the friendships I’ve made. It goes so much more than an online friend ship founded on BTS, we live and breathe the values they promote.
So yes, if I could relive any moment, it would be standing in that crowd again, singing, crying, laughing, and feeling completely seen.
But at the same time… as BTS told us “The best is yet to come.” And I believe that. With everything they’ve given us already — and everything still ahead — I wouldn’t trade the future for the past.
Would I relive 2019 if I could?
Absolutely.
Would I rather see what’s still to come?
Abso-frickin-lutely. 💜
